Yeah Yeah Yeahs Modern Romance lyrics
Don't hold on
Go get strong
or don't you know
there's no modern romance

Time, time is gone
it stops stops who it wants
well i was wrong
it never lasts
there is no
this is no modern romance

in time, time is gone
never last stops who he was
well i was wrong
never lasts

this is no
there is no modern romance
there is no modern romance
this is no modern romance
there is no there is no


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baby im afraid of a lot of things
but i aint scared of loving you
baby i know your afraid of a lot of things
but don't be scared of love
cause people will say all kinds of things
that don't mean a dam to me
cause all i see is what's in front of me
and thats you

well, ive been dragged all over the place
ive taken hits time just don't erase
and baby i can see you've been fucked with too
but that don't mean your loving days are through
cause people will say all kinds of things
that don't mean a dam to me
cause all i see is what's in front of me
and thats you

well i may be just a fool
but i know were just as cool
and cool kids they belong together

SOOOO we got that grant from CHannle 13 (PBS pretty much) for a 1000 dollars and i went to NYC today to the pressconfernce and twas awsome except the fact im dead tierd and i had to get up at 530am and i think im getting a head cold. last night me justin lauren colin chris sam lexie and jess were hanging out and we went to fuckin gonuts with a blown up condom in my pants and it was pretty darn funny being i knew all the people at big y and i got humped by lauren which was oh so nice and yes i rubbed my ass on her back so i guess i brought it upon myself lol. and hmm.. chris showed me his wang for some reason i looked so yea i saw chris wang last night might interesting hmm? and yea i got alot of really cool stuff today more stuff good for teaching classes and we are going to pick the GSA panalists soon to speak to sociology classes. Channle 13 was so great we got to go in the studio and there was all this funky stuff and took the train and it was just awsome and they are putting all my shiznit up on there website which is pretty darn cool. i am way too tierd to go out tonight so im goonna go out tommomarowowss. yeaaa biznitch. teehee. o0h and this past week was spirit week and eileen was mother earth (awww) and michelle was .... might mouse? lol i have no idea any more.. MUAH! MEOOOOWWWWSS!

Okay so me and eileen were sitting in the cafe today with michelle joking around and reminising about good ol' times and some girl who none of us knows who she is came over and sat next to eileen and i guess no matter how many times eileen tells her her name isnt emily the girl always calls eileen emily. and so we are sitting there talking and the girl is just sitting there and out of the blue the girl gets this big smile on her face and is like i want to draw a swastika on my arm. and im like why the fuck would you want to do that? and she just gets this like clueless grin on her face and is like i dunno because its cool,,, and im like well how is it cool and shes just like i dunno it just is and i wsa like thats pretty fucked up., and then im standing next to eileen and eileen is holding a pair of scissors the entire time mind you and she pulls a ruler our of her back pack and the girl is like give me your ruler i want to cut myself with it, and i was like... what.. and eileen was like shut up to the girl and the girl is like i want to cut myself saying all this with a HUGE FUCKING SMILE ON HER FACE. and i was like.. here and i handed her the scissors and eileen was like NO THOSE ARE MINE and i was like.. oh sorry, and then the girl was laughing and i know this was really mean but i dont give a shit what anyone says i think it was funny i normally wouldnt say this to someone but the things the girl was saying was really pissing me off and i just looked at her and i said you know if you cut yourself a little bit deeper next time youll never have to cut again. and i know it was bad and eileen knew that too but it was pretty funny being what a fucking idiot that girl was.

TRA FUCKING ROCKED.
I met so many awsome people, and i had the time of my life and i miss it alot. i got Gayopoly, and yea i got lots of cool info. since im on GLSENs jump start team i got free tshirts and all this stuff twas very very cool. i met so many great people i miss mo, and josh and quin and alyssa and zach and everyone i miss sooooo much i just grr i want to be with them all again, i got so many great pics of my friends in drag. and yea i just, i miss it i miss it so much.
things are going to start getting fun MEOW

So yea im leaving at 1230 today to catch the train in Washington DC. im going to GLSENs Teaching Respect for ALl conference and im really excited. =0D I have been talking to some people all over the US online who are going so i will know a few people when i get there. oh my god i cant wait i will get there at like 7 tonight and nothing starts until tomorrow really so i will just get the night to get to know everyone and get comfy in the hotle and what not, i wonder if the storm is going to hit DC really bad.. ick. Meow Meow Meow.

Eileen almost cried in lunch yesterday when someone sat on her imaginary friend lol (teehee eileen)
Eileen, thanks for talking to me so much about everything MEROW *muah* i will call you while im in DC and you know you can call my cell (after 9 tho because it would be bad if it were like long distance and after 9 it dont cost nuttin)

I think im going to go to NY and see the fugue on halloweeenie.

I met this girl from at the conference who is this like vegan, wiccan, punk rock chica, she sounds pretty awsome, and i met one person from CT who will be there and then two from NJ. One kid i met from NJ his name is derek and he seems like a sweetiepie. his GSA leader and Principle in the school are both openly gay.. how fucking awsome is that. Can you Imagine if our principle were gay.. ha.

Okay well im off i will miss everyone and i will be back home on sunday around 10:00pm

Jhonny Cash Died..

I am very sad now..

My doctor called
i can only drink clear liquids
and cant take in anything else
and if the pain gets unbarable
i have to go to the hospital..

i hate my tummy

i hate it i want to eat a match and burnnn it! MEOW

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i have alot i want to say
and im honestly not saying it to piss anyone off
so if you think it might make you angry, dont read after this point
its my journal and im not going to say i cant say things because its where i let everything out

So yea im going to TRA soon and im really excited i am going to start looking for another job soon
i cant wait for tra and the school isnt going to count me as absent for it either so im really ecited
im going to get to have a lobby day at the capitol with the congress people it will be mad chill yo...

hehe

so yea im really mad at a friend of mine because she is in this relationship that from what i see and think just makes her feel more worthless then while she wasnt in it. Thats all she talks about anymore is this relationship, there is no life outside of it, nothing matters besides it and sometimes i just want to slap her and say WAKE THE FUCK UP, but i wont because then things would be bad. and yea, this person like already cheated on her i guess in the first week that they have been going out and that should be a big red flag right there
and i guess my friend got cought with pot by her parents and i just, ugh i just am like.. i dont know what she was thinking. something is wrong with you when you are setting up your next high before you even get out of rehabilitation. and she cut again, and i just i dont know i dont know what to say to her anymore, i just dont even know what to think about any of it anymore. i mean, honestly.. she thinks this relationship is whats saving her and making her happy.. she wouldnt be doing any of this if it was, and i just.. i guess i shouldnt even be talking because no one is going to give a shit what i think about it anyway..

and yea im home today because i think i am having a Dirviticulitus attack and im debating on weather or not to go to the hospital, and yea.. i think im going to go crazy if i have another one but it sure does feel like im going to as long as im out of the hospital in time for TRA. and yea.. i just i need to be more healthy.. i hate my body and yet i dont do anything about it so i have to help it..

need to get some fucking motivation...

im obbsesed with donnie darko i want like jark Gyllenhaal to come to my house and whisp me away and just like.. yea roooarrr

lol

colin and i are going to be okay..
i love him lots and want to be with him, but dont.. you know..
but i know i will always be friends with him
meow

so yea movies i want to see
twelve monkeys
spun
salton sea
october sky

and donnie darko...
agian
for the 119y3598635837503875hfkjn e=mc^2 time..

why are you wearing that stupid bunny suit?

WHY ARE YOU WEARING THAT STUPID MAN SUIT!




Tears For Fears
Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
And their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tommorow, no tommorow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cos I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World

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